Sometimes I come to my blog, open it up, brew a cup of coffee, sit in front of my computer screen, and just stare at the blinking cursor. I never write anything. I want to, but I never do.

My schedule has been crazy. School and work have occupied all of my time. School in the morning, work in the evening, with a little overtime sprinkled in. I haven’t had a weekend where I haven’t had something to prepare, study for, write, etc.

The feeling of being behind all of the time has become so normal that I have no idea what it is like to sit and do nothing.

I have some big events coming around the corner. Big, life altering events.

Immature white blood cells have made their way back into my blood. It’s possible that my medicine is no longer working…again.

I had an appointment at MD Anderson last week. Next week, we’ll get more test results and will be able to see the big picture.

I can tell things aren’t going well. I get fatigued easily. I feel like I can’t get enough rest. My chest is heavy when I breathe, my eyelids are heavy when I wake up and go to bed. My brain feels preoccupied. It’s just not a very fun place to be.

It’s disappointing at best, annoying at worst. I hope to have a lot to say soon.

3 Responses

  1. *HUGS* Can't think of anything witty or helpful, but wanted to let you know I was happy to see a post from you. Make sure you're taking care of yourself amongst all that work & OT. Work is not more important than your health, and hopefully those you work w/ would tell you the same thing.

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